music by association

i haven't posted in a while. i got sick and so that kind of knocked me out for a bit. i haven't got anything new to share. nothing epic or particularly amazing. i downloaded some Beats Antique and it was alright. ran through it once. nothing striked me but maybe i'll give it a second shot or download a different album. i discovered the one circus song that i've heard on many occasion though. it's annoying.

today has been one of those music nostalgia days. and these come to me regularly. sometimes when i'm actually feeling nostalgic and maybe sad. sometimes when i'm just out of new amazing music and want to revisit some stuff i loved not too long ago.

it's just interesting to me how connected i am to music. i'm sure a lot of people are. we all have those songs that bring back some memory that will be forever printed in our hearts.

for me i feel the music i listen to corresponds to different stages in my life. i will associate certain artists or genres with a specific time in my life. sometimes i think i base my relationship with people on how much they have impacted my life musically. haha which is kind of ridiculous, i know. but i am astonished at the feelings i experience and the memories that arise when i listen to music that reminds me of someone and the time we had together.

i call it my music history. it tells the story of my life.

sometimes i fight with myself because the music is just so good but it will bring up some things in me that i don't want to deal with at the time. it's hard. it's hard to have amazing music associated with some thing or someone that has left you with a bad after taste. even harder to have a lot of good music associated with that thing. i remind myself to appreciate the sounds and with that appreciate the good things that came with that thing or person. there is beauty in the breakdown.

i say i let the music choose my mood but of course sometimes it's also the other way around. sometimes i play around with that concept and play some things that usually make me feel good when i'm down. most of the time though i will follow my heart. even if i am sad i will play the saddest most moving song i know because i love to feel every emotion to the fullest. i love finding music that will make me cry (and i have quite a few tracks like that). i just think it's so beautiful.

that all being said i will leave you with this track. it has a very specific, strong memory and a very solid place in my heart. no personal attachment to this song -a safe choice. beautiful vocals and lyrics and definitely has the power to make me cry at the right moment. my track of summer 2009.

Reflekt Feat Delline Bass - Need To Feel Loved (Adam K & Soha Mix)

come and catch a fire, babe. don't let me fade away. come and catch a feelin'. it's electrifying me.