The Feels

It started when I fell in love with this song...

Florence and the Machine - Shake it out

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

This song will forever be ingrained in my mind with the memory of travelling to work in Santiago singing aloud trying not to cry in public.

Around the time I moved to Argentina in February I fell in love with these other two songs by Florence and the Machine.

Dog Days are Over

Happiness hit her like a bullet in the back

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father

Run for your children, for your Sisters and brothers

Leave all your love and your longing behind

You can't carry it with you if you want to survive

My Boy Builds Coffins

My boy builds coffins he makes them all day

But it's not just for work and it isn't for play

He's made one for himself

One for me too

One of these days he'll make one for you

For you, for you, for you

Then Carlos introduced me to London Grammar.

Hey Now

Stay Awake

Shyer

Wasting My Young Years

Sights

What are you afraid of

I know that you are

Keep it in your sights now

And don’t let it go far

What are you afraid of

Making it better

Keep it by your side now

Whatever the weather

Keep it together

Keep it together

What did you do, wonder where

Your heart came from

What have you done

My only friend keep on

Wander or leave

Turn into winter lights

Keeping your strength

When it gets dark at night

Strong

Excuse me for a while

While I’m wide-eyed

And I’m so damn caught in the middle

I've excused you for a while

While I’m wide-eyed

And I’m so damn caught in the middle

And a lion, a lion roars would you not listen?

If a child, a child cries would you not forgive them?

Yeah, I might seem so strong

Yeah, I might speak so long

I've never been so wrong

Nightcall

Flickers

In this song she says "An image of you flickers in my head" and we thought she said "An anchovy flickers..."

Well that was more than half of their album 'If You Wait'. Her vocals just get me...the feels man... the feels. The best are Hey Now, Stay Awake and Sights.

Carlos also introduced me to Vance Joy.

Mess is Mine

Your mess is mine.

Who Am I?

And I wanna know what you're running from

What are you running from?

What are you running from?

And I wanna know where it's coming from

Where is this coming from?

Who am I, who am I

Without you, without you?

Who am I, who am I

Without you, without you?

And this one... the major feels... I just can't sing it without tears.

Georgia

She is something to behold

Elegant and bold

She is electricity

Running through my soul

And I could easily lose my mind

The way you kiss me'll work each time

Calling me to come back to bed

Singing Georgia on my mind

And I... And I...

Lips generous and warm

You build me up like steps

Eyes innocent and wild

Remind me what it's like 

And I could easily lose my mind

The way you kiss me will work each time

Pulling me back into the flames 

And I'm burning up 'gain

I'm burning up 

And I, I never understood what was at stake

I never thought your love was worth its wait

Well now you've come and gone

I finally worked it out

I worked it out

I never should have told you

I never should have let you see inside

Don't want it troubling your mind 

Won't you let it be

Straight to the heart...

I haven't updated in so long there are many more songs that have touched me since my last post. Hope you listened to some and enjoyed it. Let me know what you liked!!

If I didn't love you I wouldn't be here.

Flight Facilities - Stand Still feat. Micky Green (Mario Basanov Remix)

Don't make me go Grammar Girl on your ass!

I am shocked to still see people in my fb feed that still don't know the difference between there, they're and their, or then and than. I feel like these people are way intelligent, mature adults to not know the differences. There's no way they have lived this long and still not have learnt it by now.

Well, it's Tuesday night. I finally finished my online course so I'm pretty content that that is no longer hanging over my head. Tomorrow I start my 'Induction', ie. orientation, with The Language co. I'm looking forward to meeting more English speakers and teachers.

 This past Sunday Toto and Caro took me to the flea market. It was pretty crazy. People vending -everything- -every where-. There were so many people it was kind of frustrating to move and I wanted to look at stuff but there was just so many people walking that there's no room to stop. It was cool to see the market though. I didn't get anything except an outlet adapter for 300pesos. So cheap. Haven't checked to see if it works yet though. After the flea market we drove to his friends house to smoke. And after that we drove to his mom's little piece of farm land where they are currently building a well. We found a huge black berry patch completely untouched. We were wearing sandals though with nothing much to carry the berries in. I scratched up my legs a bit in the berry patch. We had a little picnic and smoked. Caro practiced driving stick. And a few cows came into the lot that we had to kinda chase out. It was a wonderful afternoon. We bought delicious watermelon on our way home. 'Sandia' it's called. I fell asleep on the way home, the sun was setting. What a nice day that was and how nice of my roommates to take me along with them.

 Caro bought a quarts pendant at the flea market so tonight I made her a leather cord for it with a clasp and everything. :) And then after that I made myself some new earrings.

That's all for now. Goodnight.

Happy International Women's Day to ALL!

This Ted talk is about sexual objectification and I know that you are all aware of its harms but I found this video to be such a great reminder of all the consequences of a society of sexual objectification. It is a reminder to look within and be conscious of how you behave and present yourself in this kind of society. The amount of advertising and media that propagates this society that we are all subject to on the daily is appalling, specifically for our youth who are now constantly plugged in. I am grateful that my father taught me my self worth comes from within, from who I am, how I treat others and my contribution to society. I'm glad he did not let me wear make up, tube tops, platforms and short shorts at age twelve. I am grateful for all the magical women in my life who have demonstrated the meaning of empowerment. You have shaped the woman I am today. Thank you. Melinda Stephanie Catalina Bevy Bonnie Dianne Tanya Hala Vita F Mo

 

Sometimes we think that a certain outcome was determined by a previous event. Like for example, this morning I was feeling a little low energy and nervous/anxious about my demo class and I thought to myself, I could indulge in this uneasy feeling…. But no, I’m going to remind myself how proud I am of myself for getting to where I am. I have accomplished a lot by just actualizing this long-term plan. I said what I was going to do and I did it. And how awesome is it that I landed myself two jobs now in the first week of living here? And with that, I went into the building. Nervous, I reviewed.... Well, clearly the demo class/interview went very well.

Now I get home and I am enthralled to learn that Carlos and his family are coming here in April for us to go to Valparaiso!!! It’s the sea port and beach two hours from here!!!! I cannot wait!!!

So, now that I am sitting here after getting high with the rommies and feeling quite good about myself and my situation, I am reminded of that choice I made this morning to pat myself on the back.

There is no way to prove that my choice and my outcomes were indeed cause and effect, except if I choose to believe they are related… that may be proof enough.

Santiago happenings part dos: Second job acquired!!!!!! Had an exceptional interview experience this week. Went to the market solo. The deli man said I was beautiful, heh. Found out that we are going to Valparaiso (beach) in April!! Super excited!!!